i hopped along the path on my crutches, i had broken my leg three years ago, i fell and twisted it, and ended up snapping a bone. i was walking back home as i stayed at my friends house last night, and my brother, Luke was home today from touring with my band so i was pretty excited to see Luke.
when i got in my closed the door behind me and started making my way to the lounge, where i heard voices. yay, my brother was home. when i got in the lounge my brother turned to face e, he smile faded as he looked at my leg, shock covering his face
"Louise. what happened?" Alex jumped up and looked at my leg
"i snapped a bone!" i sighed, as Alex pointed to a seat
"what didn’t you tell me, Lou?" Alex asked
"i didn’t want you to worry about me!" i shrugged
Luke sighed, i knew he was annoyed that i didn’t tell him.. i laid my crutches on the floor and shuffled back onto the sofa, Luke told me his friends names; Rian, Jack, and Zack. i guess they seemed nice.. i pulled out my phone as it buzzed, a text from my mum that she’s not gonna be home until tomorrow, great.
Alex told me he was staying for a month, because that’s the time they have off.. and also Matt, there tour manger is staying here.. five boys and one girl in the house? this is gonna equal trouble. everyone was quiet for a minute, i felt a little awkward.. until Jack broke it
"so, Louise. do you have a boyfriend?" Jack asked, smiling a little
"Jack! that’s my sister!" Alex hissed at his friend
"no, i don’t." i said, and gave a little shrug
after a while someone knocked on the door. Alex went to answer it. i guess it was this Matt guy. a few minutes later Alex walked in, the guy behind him. who i guess was Matt. he had brown eyes, and black hair. he had lip rings, that was hot
"i’m going upstairs!" i mumbled, grabbing my crutches
"how are you gonna get up there?" Rian asked
"i’ll figure it!" i shrugged
i hopped out the room on my crutches, i stopped at the stairs, and looked up. my mum always helped me but she wasn’t home. then i heard someone behind me. i turned around to see Alex. he chuckled and lifted me up. when he got to the top of the stairs he put me down and ruffed my hair a little.
"i don’t care. you are going to stay with your cousin!" my mum shouted
"but why? Connor doesn’t like me!" i shouted at her
"go and pack. we leave soon!" my mum replied
i groaned and ran upstairs. i was going for a whole four months while my mum is away. i packed all my clothes. five pairs of my vans, beanies, my makeup and wash stuff. and a few other random bits i’ll need. i zipped it up and went downstairs with my case to put it in the car.
i got in the passenger seat of the range rover my mum drives. i turned the music up as she started to drive. i’m Lucy. i’m 16 years old, and just finished school. i have long brown eyes and big blue eyes with pale skin. Connor, my cousin i’m going to live with is in a band called ‘the vamps’
i must of fell asleep because when i woke up i was here. i got out the car and followed my up to the door. i was a little nervous because i haven’t seen Connor since i was seven, and he was nine so of course we’ve both grown. a boy with blonde hair answered, i guess it was connor. i said bye to mum and went inside
"well haven’t you grown, Lucy!" Connor beaned at me
"it’s what people do, Connor!" i rolled my eyes
"well. i’ll show you to your room!" he smiled
Connr had perfect straight white teeth. but me being an unlucky girl i have to wear braces for another year.. when we got to my room Connor opened the door. the walls were a light purple color. a double bed with a pink bedding. a walk in watdrobe and my own bathroom. i thanked Connor and he left we to unpack.
i put all my clothes on hangers, put my shoes on the shelf in my wardrobe. hung up my few photos, put my wash stuff in the bathroom and my makeup next to me. i put my empty suitcase under my bed
i decided to go downstairs and see what Connor was up to.. i heard him talking, then i realized he wasn’t alone, i went in the lounge and found my cousin sat with three other guys.. they all seemed like teenagers. one had curly hair, his hair pushed back in a bandanna. another boy he seemed really skinny with a quiff. and a blonde one
"Lucy. this is my band; Tristan, Bradley, and James!" Connor smiled
"hi. i’m Lucy" i mumbled, sitting next to Bradley
"pretty name for a pretty girl!" Tristan smiled at me
i rolled my eyes, chat up lines? seriously?. i puled my eyes close to my chest and rested my chin on my knees. the guys were eating loads of sweets, stuff that i can’t eat because of my braces, i’ll be so glad to get them off… in two years. i sighed, putting my face to my legs.
"what’s wrong?" Bradley asked me as everyone looked at me
"you all have perfect straight teeth. and i’m stuck with braces!" i groaned
"i had braces, for five years. it’s worth it n the end!" Bradley smiled
i shrugged and sighed. i decided to get up and go to the kitchen. i opened the fridge to grab a bottle of water and i found a bad of buttered crackers. i decided to go upstairs and eat. i ate three cracks and drank some water, after i decided to grab my guitar and strum to a random song..
in the end i just strummed along to Taylor swift’s song i knew you were trouble and 22. i decided to mix it up a little and play half and half, white humming along quietly to myself. after strumming a few Taylor swift songs someone knocked on the door, i answered with a come in.. it was the guys..
"you play guitar? you didn’t tell me!" Connor smiled at me proudly
"i learnt in fifth grade!" i shrugged. not seeing it as a big deal
"play me a Taylor swift song?" James smiled at me
"pick two then!" i replied, smiling at him
James picked love story and fifteen.. i strummed along, half way through fifteen James stopped me, he told me i was really good, the others agreed with him, i felt my cheeks turn pink as i looked down at my fuzzy socks on my feet. i felt a hand on my shoulder, i looked up to see Connor
"we are gonna go play black ops!" Connor smiled at me
"can i play?" i asked, giving him puppy eyes
"if you do one thing for us?" Brad smiled at me
i nodded “be on our album!” Tristan smirked
i raised my eyebrows as them. i can’t sing, i’m awful. i bit my lip, then everyone sat down, Connor next to me on my bed and the others on the floor. Connor and Brad talked be threw everything. they wanted me and James to sing a Taylor swift song together„ me and James could decide it
my first full day at P.C.A. a boarding school. my mum sent me here because my brother’s already been here a year so she thought i should join him. which i don’t mind. the classes i take are; History, English, Maths, Biology, Media and I,T. i share a dorm room with two other girls; Zoe and Nicole. they seem lovely girls and are really welcoming.
after puttong on my stuff away i told the two girls i was going to find my brother. they told me they would come with me; as they all know my brother is Connor Franta. we had to walk five minutes to get to the boys dorm rooms. when i got to the dorms the two girls said they were going to find two other friends.
i knocked on Connor’s door and he answered. we hugged, and he pulled me into his room. he was sharing with two other guys; i think there names were Jc and Ricky. they had a bunk bed and a single bed. then a desk with loads of books. posters hanging up and s big TV
"so. who are you sharing a room with?" Connor asked, smiling at me
"Zoe brooks and Nicole!" i smiled
"when’s your first class?" JC asked. looking at me
"15 minutes" i sighed
"History?" JC smiled
i nodded. he offered to walk me as he has the same class and is in my year. when we got to class i sat myself next to Zoe as we are also in the same class. Jc went over to sit with some guys. Zoe asked if i wanted to glad lunch with her after class with some of her friends. i nodded as the class started
double history was over, thank god. i love history but it can drag sometimes. me and Zoe met up with three guys, and Nicole.. i grabbed a fruit salad for lunch with a bottle of water. we sat outside. Zoe asked me what other classes i took and i happily told her
"oh by the way; this is Josh, Brad and Chase!" Zoe smile
"Franta’s sister?" Brad asked. smiling at me
"yeah. nothing special!" i shrugged
"nothing special? he’s hot!" Nicole laughed
i rolled my eyes. i saw Zoe elbow Nicole in the stomach. then three other boys and two other girls joined us. one of the boys include my brother.. i found out the two boys names are James and George. and the two girls are Lola and Quinn
after lunch i decided to go back to the dorm. i threw my bag on the floor and climbed onto my bunk at the top. i laid on my bed, and thought; school is going to be so different now, school with my brother, not seeing my family anymore. it’s not like i can just call my mum to come an pick me up.. i was snapped out of my thoughts as someone knocked on the door and walked in
hey!” i heard a male voice.
"oh, hey Chase!" i faked a smiled
"what/s up? you seemed quiet at lunch?" Chase asked. sitting on a bean bag
"it’s nothing. this is just different!" i shrugged
i got down from my bunk and sat on the green bean bag next to chase. just getting to know each other a little more. we told each other our classes, and random little things. then Zoe came in the room. i looked at the time and saw it was almost 2 pm. and i had maths for last class. Chase was in my class so we walked together
Chase went and saw with a curly haired guy. i went to the bath of the class and sat next to a blonde haired guy.
i watched as the blood gushed from my wrists, watching the blood poor from my arms made me feel better. i felt like it could help me but i knew i shouldn’t be doing this, but it’s something i turn to, i always turn to cutting myself, it’s a habit. i cried as blood kept gushing.. i quickly put a towel round my wrist and sunk to the floor
"Carly?" i heard Jaymi call
"i’m sorry" i sobbed
Jaymi quickly ran to me and cleaned up my arm… after a while it stopped bleeding and jaymi cleaned them. he told me from now on i have to go everywhere with him. he told me if i ever feel low or feel the need to cut i need to speak to him. he told me he’s always here for me if i need him… but sometimes i feel like i have to keep it to myself.
Jaymi told me his friends will be here in half an hour as they are going on a mini tour around the uk, a little radio tour. he told me i needed to pack clothes. i quickly went to my room and packed a bag full of jumpers, t-shirts, skinny jeans, joggers, makeup, wash stuff..
the boys soon got here and we went to the van. i hadn’t met Jaymi’s band mates before so it’s gonna be pretty weird traveling with people i hardly know. i sat next to Jaymi, then next to me was a boy with a quiff, he had brown eyes.. oppsit him so another guy with a quiff, but with blue eyes. then another boy oppsit me with curly hair and brown eyes
"guys. this is my sister; Ella. she’s gonna be coming everywhere with us now" Jaymi explained to them
"hey, El. i’m George, this is Josh and JJ" he pointed
i looked at him, and smiled weakly. Jaymi could see i felt awkward so he decided to tell them i don’t talk much. they just nodded, not knowing what to say.. they decided to do there own thing. George strummed his guitar, Josh had headphones in, JJ had his eyes closed. and me and Jaymi shared headphones and listened to music.
as i was about to close my eyes and fall asleep while me and jaymi listened to music; my phone rang. i sighed and pulled my headphone out and gave it to Jaymi. i picked up my phone to see Cara; my best friend was ringing
"hello?" i mumbled quietly into my i phone
"hey. where are you?" Cara asked, happily
"um. Jaymi’s making me go everywhere with him" i mumbled sadly
"what? why?" she screamed into her phone and my ear
"because he found me, you know. doing it" i hoped she understood
"oh um. i have to go.. bye" she quickly said
i sighed and pulled my phone away from my ear. Jaymi looked at me and put an arm round me. i put my phone on the little table in the van and Jaymi gave me the headphone back. i put it in my ear as Taylor Swift ‘beat again’ filled my ear. i slouched in the chair, pulling my jumper hood up i closed my eyes
i woke up as i felt the van stop. i fluttering my eyes open, we has stopped at a shop, oh. i looked at Jaymi. he said that they were stopping to go toilet, and to buy food i quietly told him i didn’t need to go and that he can get me whatever. everyone got out but JJ, who was sat next to me didn’t
"you okay??" JJ turned to look at me, smiling a little
i nodded, looking back at him
"you don’t have to be afraid to speak" he smiled, putting a hand on my arm
i flinched and shock his hand away from my arm. he looked at me worried, before he could say anything the car door opened both sides and the boys got in.. Josh got a dr pepper and a bag of sweets. George got a few bits and a drink. George got some stuff for JJ, and Jaymi got me ancd him a salad. he got a coke with his and he got me a water.
i wasn’t really hungry after today’s events, Jaymi finding me cutting, my best friend not taking it well. the boys started talking, they didn’t involve me which i don’t mind, i don’t really want to talk.
when we got to the hotel we sorted out rooms, Jaymi didn’t know till last minute i was coming. so it was Jaymi and Josh in one room, George in another, and then me and JJ sharing…. great. i was honestly hoping i’d have my own room. me and Jaymi hugged, then he whispered something to JJ, JJ looked at me and nodded
as soon as me and JJ got into our room i dropped my bag, kicked off my vans and jumped on the bed. JJ wondered around, looking around at what we have. it wasn’t anything special to be honest. JJ then made a cup of tea, i just shock my head to it as i still had half an bottle of water Jaymi got me. JJ then sat on the bed, cross legged looking at me
"answer me one thing Ella.. why don’t you speak?" JJ questioned me
"i - um, i c-" i stuttered, tears filling my eyes
"are you afraid i’ll hurt you if you talk?" JJ asked me
i nodded. i rolled over onto my other side, my back facing JJ. not wanting him to see me crying. i felt him touch my arm and pull me to face him. i flinched and screamed a little as i felt him touch my cuts over my jumper. i felt JJ jump a little. seconds later someone was knocking on the door.
JJ quickly got up and answered. i started shaking and crying as i heard quick footsteps. i felt someone touch me and i screamed again, but it was a different touch. i looked up to see Jaymi, my brother. i cried harder as he pulled me into him
"please t-take me h-home Jaymi" i sobbed into him
"it’s better if you are with me" jaymi cooed
"but i’m not" i sobbed into his shirt
after a while of Jaymi talking to Ella he decided to go back to his room. before Jaymi left he told me to only touch her if she wants hugs, he wants e to try and get to know her, try and get her to talk. offer her things like food, drinks. i agreed and Jaymi left.
after Jaymi had left Ella came out the bathroom, she changed from her day clothes to her pajamas. a pair of long red pajama bottoms, a white t-shirt and a grey jumper. her makeup was wiped off and her hair was down and messy. she didn’t look like she cared
"you hungry?" i asked Ella. not really knowing what to say to her
she shock her head. sitting on the bed and going on her phone
"well. you want to watch a film, or something?" i asked
she shock her head once again
i sighed. i sat on the bed next to her, and got my mac book air from the floor. i opened it up and decided to go on twitter. i went to my mentions and followed some of the union j fans. i also tweeted some. after a while i went to my followers. i saw that Ella had followed me. i followed her back and went to her twitter page, reading some of her tweets
wish i could just be a happy teenager.
she tweeted that half an hour ago. i bit my lip and looked at her she was still on her i phone. tying fast. i turned back to my mac book and looked at some more of her tweets. she tweeted this morning a crying face. most of her tweets were depressing to be honest.. i wonder if Jaymi’s seen any.
i decided to log off twitter and close my laptop. i got up, placing my mac book on the floor and walking over to the kitchen to make tea. as i was making tea, i heard something smash. i quickly turned around to find Ella’s i phone on the floor near me. i looked up to see her curled into a ball on the bed. i picked up her phone, it was all smashed, the back of it and her screen
"Ella. what’s wrong? talk to me" i said. walking over to the bed
"YOU WONT UNDERSTAND" she shouted at me. crying
"maybe if you explained to me?" i asked
i sat on the bed, and she crawled into my lap, curled into me. i wrapped my arms round her small fragile body. she just stayed there, sniffing, and letting out shaky breaths. i’m surprised Jaymi didn’t hear her scream. i rubbed Ella’s back, oping she’d calm down.
"why don’t you try and get some sleep. ay?" i asked her
THE NEXT DAY
i woke up around 8 am. JJ was still asleep to i decided to go and get changed. after i had a shower i dressed in winder looking leggings, a white t-shirt and a back jumper over it. i straightened my long brown hair, and applied my makeup. after i went done i went back into the room to see JJ awake and dressed
"i’m going to meet the others. you coming?" JJ asked me
i pushed on my vans and followed JJ. he locked the door and went down the stairs. JJ jogged but i slowly walked down. we reached the lobby, Josh, George and Jaymi were already waiting. they greeted us, but i didn’t say anything. Jaymi smiled at me and we decided to leave. when we got outside the hotel fans were waiting for them. Jaymi took hold of my hand and held me close
"who’s that girl Jaymi? don’t you love Olly anymore?" someone shouted
"she’s ugly!" "that’s Jaymi’s sister!" "she’s the depressed one" people said
when we got into the car i sat by the window. George sat next to me, and Jaymi next to him. then JJ and Josh the other side. the driver started to drive and off we went to the first radio station. but while the boys met fans and stuff i’m going to see Olly, Jaymi’s boyfriend and my best friend.
i texted Olly to make sure it’s okay, and he said it was. it was only a ten minute drive. the car stopped and maybe around 100 fans were waiting for the guys. when we all got out Jaymi pulled me into a hug, kissed my cheek and told me to be safe, and if i need him, to text him
i nodded, showing that i understand. we smiled at each other then i set off to meet olly at a park.. when i got to this park i found Olly sat on a bench, waiting for me. when i approached him we hugged and he told me to sit. Olly sat next to me, everything was quiet for a minute, then Olly broke the silences
"so, how have you been, you know!?" Olly questioned
"horrible" i could only speak to Jaymi and Olly
"why babe?" Olly put an arm round me
"it just has" i mumbled
me and Olly spoke a little, then Olly decided to take me back to where the boys were. it only was a ten minute walk. we were both silent. when we got back loads of fans were screaming and calling the boys i stopped Jaymi so me and Olly ran over to him. he hugged and kissed Olly, then Jaymi took hold of my hand
back in the van i sat next to George, then the other side was JJ, Josh and Jaymi. everyone was quiet. the boys wanted nandos as they hadn’t eaten all day, i wasn’t really hungry but i knew i had to eat. when we got in there me and Jaymi shared a plate of chips. Josh got chicken and chips. George got a burger, and JJ got the same as Josh
"i’m not hungry" i mumbled. not like eating in front of other people
"tell me when you last ate?" Jaymi asked me
"um. two days ago" i mumbled, feeling the tears in my eyes
"you have to eat. for me?" Jaymi literally begged
after we ate we went back to the hotel. when me and JJ got back to our room we had to pack our things and meet the boys in half an hour at the lobby to go to Nottingham for the next radio station. i decided to change into my onsie for the trip because it’s comfy. i went into the bathroom and changed into my pink onsie. i then packed and was done.
we got back into the van. i was sat next to Josh, then Jaymi next to me. then the other side was George and JJ.. i plugged my headphones into my phone and put them in my ears. i turned my phone on, and closed my eyes. hoping i’d fall asleep
"Ella. wake up!" i heard an unknown voice talking to me
i opened my eyes to be faced with Josh
"come on we’re here!" Josh smiled
when we got inside the hotel we fund out we were sharing a huge room.. when we got to our room there was everything.. it was around 6 pm. i was still tired and just unhappy for some unknown reason. everyone was hungry but me and Josh weren’t. so everyone went to get food while me and Josh stayed here
as i sat down someone knocked on the door. Josh answered as i pulled out Jaymi’s i pad Olly got him from his bag. i turned it on and sat on the floor, in the middle of the room. i hard Josh telling someone to come in. i pressed the twitter app then looked to, seeing four boys i had no clue who they were.
one of them had a mass of curly hair, brown eyes and a baby face. the other one was a dirty blonde hair guy, brown eyes and also a baby face. the one next to him had brown hair, in a quiff, blue eyes. and the last one had blonde hair, in a quiff
"Ella. this is Tristan, Brad, James and Connor" Josh smiled
"it’s lovely to meet you, Ella!" Brad smiled at me
"she’s Jaymi sister.. she um, doesn’t talk much" Josh told them
i swallowed hard as i felt tears built in my eyes. then the other guys came. i ran over to Jaymi and hugged him. almost cursting into tears on him. Jaymi looked at me confused. he then took my hand and pulled me into the bathroom, told me to just sit and calm down. i nodded
i grabbed a razor and started pulling it a cross my wrists as i cried. i can’t deal with all this depression and being sad all the time. i just want to be a normal teenager that has friends, has or wants a boyfriend, and to be happy. but no, it never happens for me.. i quickly cleaned my wrist and rubbed off my makeup. i ent back into the other room and took the i pad off Jaymi
"so, you’re touring with us, aren’t you?" i heard Jaymi ask them boys
"yeah!" i heard Brad say back to him
i decided to go to my room and lock myself in there. i closed the door behind me and locked it. when i turned around, my heart beat faster as i was scared by JJ laying on his bed. didn’t know we had to share rooms.. i sat on my bed and went to facetime on the i pad. i pressed Olly
i walked through my front door, lightly closing it behind me and kicking off my shoes. as i did i thought about my girlfriend; Michelle. she should be home from school now. she’s in her last year, year 11. she take Biology, Chemistry, Maths, English and P.E.. she’s 15 and i’m 20. yes i know, you must wonder why she’s dating a dully grown man.. it’s a long story
Michelle was kicked out of her parents house as she was failing school badly. being only of her only friends i took her in. i helped her a lot with school work, and i still sometimes do now if she needs the help. she got kicked out at 14 and now she’s 15, no parents to tell her what to do. we grew really close over the year and we tried a relationship and it seems to work out fine..
i jogged upstairs and stood outside her door. her door was open slightly, the light was on. i walked in and turned. Michelle was laid peacefully on her bed. her bedroom walls were covered in revision notes and school related posters.. on the floor was her laptop, it had a word doc up, written up course work. around her on the bed was text books, open, pens, note books. i looked at Michelle. she was fast asleep, her headphones in her ears.. i grabbed her phone and turned off her music
"Michelle?" i whispered lightly in her face….
she groaned and rolled over, knocking a pen and text book on the floor. i rolled my eyes. i guess she’s had a long day at school, getting lectures from her teachers. so i decided to leave her and put her stuff away.. i grabbed all four of her text books and put them on her desk in a pile. i grabbed her pens, and notebooks, placing them on the table as well..
"Micheal?" Michelle mumbled softly, opening her eyes
"yeah, babe? you okay?" i asked, crouching down at her bed
"yeah. just been long" she shrugged, rubbing her eyes
i smirked at her cuteness .. after a while of talking to Michelle about her day she decided to shower and change. i went into my room and decided to lay in bed for a while
i slipped on a pair of pajama polka dot shorts and a white tank top. i pushed my hair into a pony tail and decided to go downstairs.. Micheal wasn’t down here so i’m guessing he’s in his room sleeping or watching TV.. as i made a glass of water someone knocked on the door… i put my glass down to see three boys stood looking straight at me
"uh.. is Micheal in?" a blonde boy asked, standing in front of the others
"yeah. one sec" i told him "MICHEAL" i shouted
Micheal came jogging down the stairs in seconds. i told him some guys were at the door for him. he smiled and told me go in the lounge. i shrugged and went into the lounge. i drank some of my water as i turned on the TV, flipping to Jersey Shore. i pulled my legs close to my chest and started watching TV
i could hear Micheal talking.. i heard him mention my name as someone asked who i was… i swallowed.. i’m five years younger than Micheal and we’ve kept it to ourselfs that we are dating because i’m not meant to be dating him till i’m at least 16..
"Michelle? um.. this is Luke, Calum, and Ashton" Micheal pointed
"um guys. this is my girlfriend; Michelle" Micheal wrapped as arm round me
all of them looked at me, i didn’t know what to think, to be honest. but i hate all eyes on me, i hate being center of attention. in the end i had to excuse myself from the awkwardness. i went into the kitchen. i grabbed a bowel of fruit already made and went upstairs to my room..
"Micheal. how old is she?" Luke whisper yelled at me
"um, 15.. why’s it a big deal?" i asked, annoyed
"why is she living with you as well?" Ashton whispered to me
i sighed, knowing this lecture was gonna come one day.. i told them all about Michelle’s parents and how awful they were to her. i told them all about Michelle as well. in the end they all understood and laid off a little. thank god. i honestly can’t be dealing with the lecture. i love Michelle…
i decided to go and check on Michelle. i knew she felt awkward around the guys, she’s a very shy and awkward girl. i knocked on her door but i didn’t get an answer. so i decided to go in.. Michelle was sat on her bed, watching TV were eating a bowel of fruit..
"they don’t approve of me, do they?" she mumbled sadly
"it’s not that, it’s just…" i didn’t know what to say to her
"spit it out, Micheal" she sounded annoyed with me
"they think you are a little young" i mumbled
"oh" she mumbled
she put the bowel on her desk. before she could sit back on her bed i embraced her in a hug, kissing her forehead multiple times. she sighed and wrapped her arms round my waist. she’s only 5 food two and i’m five foot 10. i heard her sigh deeply and pulled out of my embraced. she reached up to kiss me but she couldn’t reach, so i leaned down and kissed her. she giggled as she pulls away
"you are adorable" she smirks at me
"not as cute as you" i wink at her
she blushes a deep shade of pink. i don’t know why but i always have that affect on her. whatever i say or do she just blushes a pink. after sharing another quick kiss Michelle went back to her bed, and i went downstairs..
the boys decided they wanted to leave, so they did..i knew why they didn’t ant to stay. i knew they are a little pissed off at me for a couple of things. one; i’m dating a 15 year old, two; i didn’t tell them… can’t you see why i kept it from them? because i knew they wouldn’t be happy..
when i finished with my shower i went into my room, pulling on a pair of boxers and a t-shirt. not bothering to put on joggers. i left my hair wet… as i was playing around with my guitar Michele came into my room… she looked at me a little worriedly, knowing something was wrong
THE NEXT DAY
I woke up when my alarm woke out. turning it off, i groaned and got out of bed. as i did get out of bed i suddenly went really sick. i went to the backroom and was sick three times.. i flushed and brushed my teeth i turned the bathroom light off and smelt pancakes, which made me even more sick.. i sighed and went downstairs
"good morning. did i hear you being sick?" Micheal asked worried
"yeah.. i’m never sick" i sighed. hugging him
"don’t go in today, better if you stay home, babe" Micheal kissed me
i nodded. i never miss school but now i have too.. i went into the lounge, turning to TV on, just watching anything. i wrapped myself in a blanket. Micheal handed me a mug of coffee, i smiled thanking him. then someone knocked, Micheal answered..
i sat in my blanket, drinking my coffee and watching TV. i felt my stomach doing flips, i have no clue whats wrong with me, i’ve never felt the need to be sick this badly before. i groaned as i put my mug on the table, my stomach making noises as Micheal came in… with his friends
"hi Michelle" Luke and Calum said at the same time
"hi" i mumbled, giving a weak smile to them
Ashton didn’t even bother saying hi to me, and yes it does bother me. i know why he wont speak to me. it’s only because he doesn’t approve of me and Micheal, and because of my age.. i looked at Micheal, who was sat next o me.. he looked a little upset, which i new why..
Micheal put his arm round me and pulled me closer to him, i snuggled into him a little. they all started talking about the album they are working on, Ashton was also talking but i just stayed quiet, as i didn’t.. then i heard my phone buzz next to me
why aren’t you in today? - Kim
i smiled at the text at least Kim cared about me.. me and Kim have known each other side year 1. we met on the first day as she was in my class. we’ve be so close! at school we have most classes together, even home room. Kim has long black hair with green eyes. and of course she’s my age
i was sick four times this morning.. and i don’t know why - Michelle
within minutes Kim had replied, but i hadn’t looked at it yet, i was too busy listening to the guys talk. Micheal and Luke were talking about a song they wrote called ‘heartbreak girl’. they were talking about the meaning to the song… the song’s about a girl that had been in a rough relationship, getting badly treated by a girl. and the girl wont let any other guy into her life because she’s too scared.. then i decided to look at the text
did you get your period last week? - Kim
i thought for a moment, no i didn’t. Kim knows when i’m on my period, well normally she does. as i always tell her and we normally have our periods at the same time. weird i know but true.. i bit my lip as i closed the text and locked my phone.. not wanting Michael to see the text and worry.
"where are yo going?" Micheal asked me, earning all eyes on me
"get dressed and have to go out" i quickly replied
i ran upstairs and closed my bedroom door. i went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair. i went back to my room. pulling on a white pair of denim shorts with a brown belt done up. pulled on a black tank top, with a dark blue hoodie that Micheal gave me. i pushed my a pair of vans and went downstairs
"back soon!" i called out to Micheal
"come here and kiss me goodbye" Micheal called back
i rolled my eyes at him. i always have to kiss him goodbye, even if i’m leaving him for five minutes.. i quickly went into the lounge, quickly kissing him on the lips, i went to pull away but Micheal being himself, he pulled me back. i pulled away and shock my head at him..
i stood in super drug, looking at all the different types of pregnancy tests.. if my mum knew about this she’d kill me and make sure i’d never see Micheal again..see the thing is, i wasn’t forced into sex by Micheal, he cared when i don’t him i was a little scared, but it was on my 15th birthday and i thought it was time… yeah i enjoyed it, we used a condom but it must of split..
i’m now sat on the end of the bath, waiting for the three minutes to be up, i feel like it’s 20 minutes.. i looked at my phone and before i knew it the three minutes was up.. i slowly picked up the test, scared of what it’s going to tell me.. i looked down and it said ‘4+ months’ oh god no, i am pregnant
i quickly went into my room and put the test in one of my draws. i couldn’t let Micheal see it, not yet anyway.. what about school? i’m starting exams soon, people at school are gonna think i’m a slut… i thought all the thoughts out my head for now and decided t go downstairs
"me and the guys are going out, wanna come?" Micheal asked me
"um.. where you going?" i asked, standing near the lounge door
"shopping, for clothes, and food" Luke beaned at me
"yeah’ i’ll come i guess" i shrugged
Micheal was driving, Calum was next to Micheal in the passenger seat, Luke was next to the left window, Ashton in the middle, then me by the right window.. i had my headphones in the whole way to town, i didn’t really want to hear Ashton’s voice. yes, he’d annoyed me over the whole thing..
we pulled up outside town. we parked and got out the car. i took my headphones out my phone and slipped them in my pocket.. Micheal took hold of my hand, he didn’t care what people thought, he’d always hold my hand we were out..
"where you want to go first, guys?" Ashton asked the boys
"Holister" Luke smiled, running off
we followed Luke into Holister.. Micheal told me to pick up anything i wanted… i decided to look at the jumpers.. i picked out a green jumper with with shop name written on it.. i decided to get large as i’m pregnant now, and i don’t want to wear tight clothes.. i’m normally a meduim because i feel as it comfy.
"you okay, you’ve been quiet all day" Micheal whispered to me
"i’m fine, i’ll tell you later" i told him, smiling a little
Micheal nodded, rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand. weall decided to split up. because they all wanted different shops. Ashton and Calum wanted to go into the vans shop, it buy shoes, Luke wanted the beanie shop, and Micheal wanted to game shop. i decided to go wth Luke as i love beanies and wanted one
Luke smiled at me, as i told him i needed a new beanie.. he was so jealous when i told him i have a beanie what says ‘whatever’ me and Luke seemed to get on okay.. me and Luke walked round together. i grabbed a dark red beanie that said ‘selfie’ and Luke decided to get a normal black one, along with a couple with writing on
"Luke, can i ask you something?" i bit my lip as we walked
"yeah sure… what is it?" Luke smiled at me
"why doesn’t Ashton speak to me?" i asked, looking down
Luke groaned, running a hand threw his hair. i knew i shouldn’t of asked, i’m so fucking stupid. i wanted to jut leg it now.. now Luke probably doesn’t like me. Luke looked at me, and told me he’d tell me later..
we all met up next holister. Micheal wrapped a arm round me, and showed me the new game he got i don’t really pay attention to his gaming, to be honest it’s not my thing.. Micheal grabbed hold of my hand again as we started walking to the food court.
the guys ordered pretty much the same; burger and chips. but each of them had different meat or salad. i just had a small bowel of chips and a salad. i wasn’t very hungry, and i also needed salad as i have revision to do, as i have exams in a few months
"can we go now? i have to revise" i whined to Micheal
"alright.. come on guys" Micheal called at them
out the corner of my eye i could see Ashton, as Micheal spoke his rolled his eyes.. like seriously Luke really needs to tell me what Ashton’s problem is with me. he can’t dislike me, or hate me as he doesn’t even know me, and i doubt he wants to get to know me… he just seems like the typical cocky Australian guy. which is a shame because he seems like a nice guy..
when we got home, the guys decided they should go, they all said they need to be doing something.. i knew they were lying.. when me and Micheal got inside i went straight to my room. putting my new stuff away and burring myself on my bed, curled into a ball
"babe? what’s wrong?" Micheal picked me up, putting me in his lap
"so many worries" i started to cry, burying my face in his neck
"tell me, Michelle. i need to know" Micheal said rubbing my back
"don’t be mad at me but… i’m p-p-pregnant" i sobbed, stuttering
Micheal didn’t say a word to me. i felt his chin on my shoulder, as he rubbed my back.. placing gentle kisses on my right shoulder. his band is going to hate me even more now.. i just really hope Micheal understands i can’t keep this child, we both have life’s to lead. i’m hoping to pass my exams, go to collage and uni. and Micheal band has a lot going on as well
THE NEXT DAY
yesterday was rather a long day. me and Micheal spend it dying each other hair, his is blue, and mine is dark red. which i think suits me.. we also sat watching loads of different films, horror mostly. then i had a early night… i’m not sure if Micheal is gonna tell the guys, as i’m not keeping the baby, and he understands that…
i woke up as my alarm went off.. 7 am, you cam quickly..i turned off my alarm and got up.. i showered, and was sick a few times. i brushed my teeth and went back into my room.. i brushed my hair and straightened it… i put my uniform on.. a white polo shirt, a black skirt, a green jumper, black socks and shoes. i applied my makeup and went downstairs
morning” Micheal smiled at me, pulling me into a hug
"i don’t wanna go! i whined, wrapping my arms round his waist
"why?" Micheal asked, looking down at me
"have a biology exam!" i mumbled, groaning
Micheal dropped me off. i said bye and left him. i walked into school, and met up with my best friend Kim. she smiled at me, and looked down at my stomach and back to me.. oh god, we she goes! as me and Kim walked to our first class; English. i told her about Luke, Calum and Ashton. i told her that only Luke and Calum have spoke to me and Ashton woke
"what did Micheal say about the pregnancy?" Kim whispered to me
"he understands that i don’t want to keep it" i whispered back
i told her that tomorrow after school Micheal is taking me to get an abortion. i honestly don’t agree with killing a baby. i only agree with it if you are young like me, or if you got raped or something like that. other than that abortion isn’t right. Micheal told me this morning he isn’t going to tell the guys as it’s nothing to do with them.
me and Kim got to class. i took my seat, next to Louie, who is one of my friends, very good friend. Kim sat next to another girl, which is the school bitch, as gossips about everything and everyone.
so, it’s lunch now, i’d just finished my biology exam, and i think i did okay. i studied my ass off.. since my year had an exam we were allowed to go home now. Kim decided to come over to mine and Micheal’s. she’s the only one that knows about me and Micheal.
"hi girls" Micheal smiled as we walked into the kitchen.where he was
"hey Micheal.. haven’t seen you in ages" Kim smiled at him
"well, been busy. you know" Micheal laughed
"what? fucking Michelle?" Kim smirked at me
"KIMBERLY" i shouted at her
Kim laughed so hard she was almost crying. Luke nearly spat his drink out. Calum nearly choked on air, and Ashton just stayed silent. me and Micheal laughed. that’s Kim for you. she has a very dirty mind for her age… Kim sat down next to Ashton while i made me and her a glass of water
"why do you hate Michelle so much?" i saw Kim ask Ashton
"KIM. shut up" i spat at her. pretty annoyed she asked
!i don’t hate her. but there relationship is just wrong” Ashton spoke
"if it makes you happy then here. i’m just done with a relationship. i’m done with everyone judging me and thinking i’m some sort of slut. i’m gonna go and you know what? you’ll never have to see me again" i spat at them all
i quickly ran out the house, and down the street,n knocking into people i ran past
i laid in bed, next to my boyfriend Josh.. he was still asleep but i was wide awake.. he had his arm wrapped round me. i took his hand and started playing with the ring he has on his third finger. the ring i got him just a couple months after we met, and he never takes it off
"good morning" i smiled, as he looked down at me
"morning" Josh groaned.. not much of a morning person
i decided to get out of bed and get dressed.. after a long hot shower i went back into the bedroom. Josh was out of bed already. i decided to wear a pair of black skinny jeans, and a white tank top. i straightened my hair and applied Mascara and a little bit of eye liner..
i went downstairs, Josh was sat on the sofa, on his phone. i sighed and went into the lounge, sitting next to Josh as someone knocked at the door, Josh didn’t even bother to get it so i did…
"hey, Mollie!" George smiled at me
"hey. come in" i mumbled, sitting a side..
"you okay?" Jaymi asked as he walked in
"no" i shock and head and burst into tears
while everyone was in the lounge with Josh, Jaymi took me into the kitchen and told me sit and explain everything to him. he knew me and Josh hadn’t been getting on
i sat on the sofa, twiddling with the silver ring of my second finger of my right hand. just thinking of everything and everyone..
i’m Mia Hensley. i’m 20 years old with long brown hair. sparkling blue eyes and white skin. i live with the band ‘five seconds of summer’ Ashton, is my boyfriend and we’ve been together six months. and honestly i love him so much, he’s my first proper boyfriend and i can truly say i love him
"miaaaaaa" Ashton whined, sitting next to me
"yes? what’s wrong?" i asked, looking at him
"i missed you, so much" he whined
"Ash. you left her an hour ago" Luke rolled his eyes
Ashton pouted and i laughed. Ashton laid in head in my lap as he yawned. i ran my fingers through his hair, which i know he loves. he gave me a cheeky smile and winked at me.. i’ve been with Ashton a long time and some how i still blush every time he does or says clue things
i tore my gaze away from Ashton’s eyes and looked up, the rest of the guys were in the lounge as well. Luke was sat on a bean bag reading a book, Calum was sat watching TV and Micheal was sat on the sofa, looking straight at me and Ashton
"Mia, can i talk to you?" Micheal asked, standing up
"sure. Ashton, move" i groaned, looking at him
"no, you are comfy. please" Ashton wrapped his arms round me
i rolled my eyes and pushed Ashton off me, playfully. Ashton pouted and stood up. i stood up and followed Micheal out the room and into the garden.. the sun was beaning and it was so hot. me and Micheal went down the bottom and sat under a tree.
me and Micheal sat in silence for a few minutes. it wasn’t awkward or anything but i have no clue what Micheal whats to say so i might as well not say a word until he’s ready to tell me what he wants to say..
"i love you" i heard Micheal mumble
"excuse me?" i looked at him
"i like you, a lot okay?" he spat at me
i gulped, was this some kind of sick joke? Micheal can’t like me, just no this isn’t right. i’m dating his best friend and band mate. i’m happy with the person i’m with. i really love Ashton and i honestly don’t have feeling for Micheal or any of the others..
Me amd Micheal locked eyes, his eyes pouring with sadness and depression. i tore my eyes away from him and stood up, walking away and leaving him. i went back inside. Ashton was laid on the sofa, watching me walk away. and luke and Calum were doing the same as before
"Mia?" Ashton stopped me and wrapped his away round my waist
"Ash. not now, babe" i told him, pulling out his grip
Ashton dropped his arms from my waist and i walked away upstairs. i knew Ashton would be sad because i know how much he loves having cuddles and cute moments, but now wasn’t the time.
i know i shouldn’t be upset or angry with Micheal because you can’t stop feelings and i know that but come on, he should know better. i’m one of his best friends and he loves me. all the guys can see how much i love Ashton and how happy we make each other
i must of fell asleep because when i woke up someone was next to me, and had a arm round me.. i fluttered my eyes open and felt finger tips on my hip bone, letter tracing my hip bone.. i looked at the hand, and it was Ashton’s hand.
"what’s wrong, Mia. why you moody?" Ashton’s sweet voice spoke
"just the time of the month" i sighed, because it’s true
"well how about we go downstairs and cuddle?" Ashton mumbled
we stood up and went downstairs. Ashton carrying pillows and our duvet downstairs. i curled onto the sofa and Ashton put my duvet over me and pillows behind my head. i turned the TV on and heard other people come in the lounge. i groaned wanting Ashton with me
"\any room for me?" Luke jumped at the en of the sofa
"LUKE!" i groaned, kicking him in the dick
"ow, Ashton. Mia’s being horrible!" Luke called out
i rolled my eyes at how childish Luke can be. but that’;s one thing i love about him, his childish side.. Ashton came back in the room with tea, strawberries, chocolate and films. everyone kind of gave ashton a weird look as he placed my tea and food on the floor. i groaned as a pain shot through my stomach
Ashton put the film on and pulled down the blinds. i think everyone now knew what was wrong with me.. i curled into a ball and watched Ashton. he sat in the arm chair while luke was sat at the bottom on the sofa i’m laid on, Calum and Micheal sat on the other sofa
"what’s wrong with you?" i looked up to see Ashton talking to Micheal
"i love you girlfriend" Micheal said for everyone to hear
"b-but you can’t. Micheal what’s going on?" Ashton spat
"Ash. he told me earlier, that’s why i was in a bad mood" i sighed
Ashton looked at me, shock and sadness covering his whole face.. he stood up and walked away. hearing the door slam shut meaning he’s gone out for a drive, knowing it calms his down a little.
i sighed and pulled my duvet right over my head, and silently sobbed to myself knowing now me and Ashton could break up because of Micheal and his stupid fucking feelings. i didn’t know what to feel or what to do. i couldn’t hate Micheal, feelings come naturally i know but he had to ruin it didn’t he, and thats what makes me angry.
"don’t cry, Mia" Luke whispered, pulling the duvet back
"what if i’ve lost him" Luke pulled me into his chest
"Ash loves you, he’s not gonna leave you" Luke told me
i sigh and grip onto Luke’s t-shirt, sobbing into his neck.. you wouldn’t of guessed it but i’m super duper close with Luke, he’s one of the first people i met out of the whole band, and in a way Luke got me with Ashton and i’m so fucking happy Luke let me meet the band, because if i hadn’t then i would never of met Ashton, the guy i love..
a few hours later i was woken up by shouting.. i sighed, i guess Ashton’s having a good go at Micheal. to be honest i would of just left Micheal to get on with his feelings but no, Ashton always has to take things i step further, which annoys me a lot because sometimes he pushes it with me..
"look guys, don’t fall out over me. please" i said walking in the kitchen
"but he needs to be told" Ashton shouted at me.. almost crying
"i get it, Ash but shouting at him isn’t worth it. he’ll get over it" i shrugged
"she’s right, just leave it and pretend Micheal never said anything" Calum siad
Ashton groaned, storming past me and upstairs, hearing the bedroom room slam shut i flinched, as the noises and the pains in my stomach.. i didn’t want Micheal and Ashton to fall out over me, they are best friends and i can’t split them up over all this, and i hope it wouldn’t. i just wish Micheal kept it to himself..
i went upstairs and closed my bedroom door behind me. Ashton laid face down into the pillow, he light sobs flowing around the room… i sat next to him and pulled him into my lap. i wrapped my arms round his waist as he cried into my chest, letting one hand run through his hair, which sometimes calms him down
"he c-can’t do t-this" he sobbed. i sighed…
"Ash. i’m staying with you" i told me
i pulled him face up with two fingers under his chin. making him look at me. his eyes wondered, his face looking at me but his eyes on the floor… i told him to look at me, which his did.. i weakly smiled at him then cupped his face… his lips quivered as a tear rolled down his cheek. i pulled his face closer and kissed him, he kissed me back slowly and pulled away
"i’m s-sorry" Ashton sobbed
"Ash it’s fine, calm down" i mumbled
"i love you" he looked up at me
"and i love you too" i kissed his nose
he smiled and laid his head back on my chest. i scooted down the bed till i was laying down a little. Ashton stayed where he was. i pulled the covers over us to keep up warm because it’s pretty cold… soon falling asleep
i groaned as i felt someone doing something, i felt fingers on my body. finger’s on my hip bone. i opened my eyes to see Ashton looking down, frawing tuff on my hip bone with his fingers.. he looked up a few seconds later and saw i was awake and smiled
"how you feeling?" Ashton asked, kissing me
"alright i guess" i shrugged, getting up
Ashton went downstairs while i brushed my hair and put it in a messy bun. i pulled on a hoodie and went downstairs
"what’s your name?" Kelly asked me
"Michelle Hensley" i smiled sweetly
"are you related to Jaymi Henslehy/ how old are you?" Simon asked
"yes, i am… and 17 years old" i replied
"what will you be singing today?" Tulisa asked
"um, Ed Sheeran - The A Team" i smiled
all the judges wished me luck. i put my guitar round me and took a deep breath as i started to strum my guitar and sing.
in the middle of the song i looked around, at the crowed, people were singing along softly and cheering me on. i looked at the judges to see them smiling
when the song finished Louis told me how amazing i sounded. he gave me a yes. next was Tulisa. she smiled and told me i need to improve on my vocals a little, she also gave me a yes. Kelly and Gary also gave me two yess. i’m in the next round.. boot camp!
as i gave off stage i took my guitar in my hand and handed back the microphone to the man. aas i walked down the three steps there stood Dermot, Jaymi (my brother) and his boyfriend and my best friend Ollie. the hugged, Jaymi had tears rolling down his cheeks. he kissed my cheek, like Ollie did aswell
"we’ll sure you at boot camp! well done, Michelle" Dermot smiled
i walked through the mass of people with Jaymi holding my guitar in one hand, his other hand in my hand, and Ollie holding my other. as we walked past people they were congratulating me. i thanked them.
Jaymi’s in a band called ‘Union J’ they were on the x-factor last year, they came second. they’ve done so well for themselfs. got number one singles, a number one album and had three sold out tours. the band add up of George, JJ, Josh and Jaymi
"Well.." George smiled as we walked through the door
"I GOT TO BOOT CAMP" i screamed
i was tackled into a hug by JJ, Josh and George. JJ picked me up and spun me around, kissing my cheek. i was crying. he put me down and i sat to sit down and let it all sink in. my hands over my mouth, just sat there looking at the floor, tears rolling down my cheeks
i have two weeks to prepare for boot camp. i need to pick a song and learn it on guitar. i wanted to do a song not many people have heard, i could sing a song i wrote but get so embarrassed. i thought for a minute, then it clicked. i’ll do a song slow, like The A Team.
"i’m thinking of doing a slow song.." i mumbled
"what about Rihanna, unfaithful?" George suggested
"i love that song, but i don;t know it on guitar" i sighed
"George will teach you" Josh smiled
George smiled, and told me it wont take long, only a few hours as it’s simple to learn. after a drink of tea me and George went to my room and learnt unfaithful.. by two hours i’d learn it, i guess everyone was right, it was retty simple to learn
Josh wrote out the song lyrics for me, and George gave me the guitar chords. i stuck them on my wall and started practicing. Jaymi came into my room almost three hours later, telling me i can’t do to much singing as i don’t want my voice to damage and for me to loose my voice for boot camp..
"can we get pizza, and chips?" i whined, snugging into JJ’s side
"you know how much i love pizza!" Josh smiled
"alright guys, calm. me and Ollie will go" Jaymi smiled
we all cheered. Ollie and Jaymi put jackets on and they left. George put a film on ‘pitch perfect’ which was one of my favorite films only because of the cup song and i was the only one out of all the guys that could do it while singing it. George went to make the teas while JJ put his arm safely round me, Josh on the over sofa, and George
while we waited for Ollie and Jaymi to get back JJ laid in his head in my lep, which i found cute. me and JJ aren’t a couple, we are just very close best friends and we do act as a couple a lot of the time… i ran my finger through JJ’s quiff, he groaned as i knew he loved when i played with his hair.
"FOOOOOOOOOD" Jaymi screamed
everyone rushed past George who was about about five mugs of hot drinks in his hands. i laughed and grabbed a few mugs out his hands. we placed them on the table and went to grab out pizzas and chips. i got cheesy chips with ham and tomato pizza. JJ got onion rings with Ham pizza. Ollie and Jaymi got the same, garlic with spicy cheesy chips. Josh got pineapple cheese pizza with salt and vinegar fries. and George got pepper, cheese and Chile pizza with fat chips.
"so, which judge do you want?" Ollie asked with a mouthful of food
"i’m not sure. Kelly or Gary!" i said, biting into my pizza
after we finished our food every spread out onto the sofas and floor. me and JJ laid on one sofa. Ollie and Jaymi on another and Josh and George on the floor. we were watching some films that Ollie picked
THE NEXT DAY
i woke up strangled in my duvet, the duvet wrapped round my whole body. i unwrapped myself and got dressed in a pair of red skinny jeans and a white top with navy strips. i brushed my hair and wrapped it in a messy bun. i put on a pair of geeky looking framed glasses. and i do need them, it’s not just for fashion.. i grabbed my guitar and went downstairs
"morning guys" i chirped, walking in the lounge
"morning" George smiled drinking tea
"i’m gonna go practice" i smiled,
i went out the room and into the basement where the guys always practice for shows and i also practice in here. in the basement were all the instruments the guys play and microphones. also there was a black sofa and loads of fairy lights round the room
i found Ollie, Jaymi and JJ sat in there. Jaymi was snuggled into Ollie, and JJ was just looking at his phone. Ollie saw me and smiled. i smiled back and Ollie patted the free seat next to him. i sat down and put my guitar on the floor
"you look soooo adorable" Ollie smiled at me
"thanks. can you all get out. need to practice" i smirked
Jaymi groaned, and JJ just stood up and left.. Ollie grabbed Jaymi’s hand and they went out. giving me time to practice as i need the best i can be, i can’t fuck up, i’m sick of being put down by other people saying my voice isn’t strong enough for very high notes. i know that and that’s why the boys help me a lot
i practiced for about two hours, non stop. so i decided to take a break. i drank half a bottle of water. i sat on the sofa in the basement. my thoughts wondered; what if i’m not what they are looking for? what if i’ve made a twat of myself and i don’t get to judges houses. i started doubting myself, making myself upset when i shouldn’t
"Michelle?" i turned to see JJ stood looking at me
"what if i’m not good enough?" my voice cracked
JJ sat beside me and cuddled me. he explained that everyone in the competition feels the excact same as i do and it’s normal. he told me he felt the same at bootcamp because he got dejected so many times. i guess JJ was right, of course i’m gonna feel like this, i guy everyone does.
JJ said i should stop practicing for a while and we should all go starbucks. so we did. me and the guys ended up in starbucks. i told them all what i was feeling, and they all said the same as JJ
"don’t worry, you’ll be fine" George smiled, holding my hand
"thank you" i mumbled..
TWO WEEKS LATER
two weeks soon passed very quickly. today’s boot camp and i’m not that nervous, more excited.. i got out of bed as my alarn went off at 6 am. i showered and got dressed. i dressed in blue skinny jeans, a white t-shirt and a jumper over it. i pulled on my grey vans and blow dried my hair. i straightened it and applied my makeup..
i went downstairs. everyone was awake and already dressed. i quickly ate my toast and we ere all off.. today the boys were coming with me, all of them. which i’m glad because not all of them could make it to my audition…
"Michelle Hensley" someone called out
"that’s you. come on Mich" Jaymi smiled
i put my guitar round me and took a deep breath.. Caroline and Matt from xtra factor were stood with me and the guys. Matt and Caroline wished me luck with a smile. and all the boys wished me luck, Jaymi kissing my forehead. i walked up the steps and onto the stage.. seeing the judges and 4,000 people sat in front of me..
"hello, Michelle" Nicole smiled at me "how you feeling?" she added
"quite excited, to be honest" i smiled, people cheered
when your ready, good luck” Louis smiled at me
i started strumming my guitar to the intro of unfaithful, and before i know it i was singing, i looked at the judges, Nicole was smiling and so was Kelly. Simon and Louis were making notes, or something.. the crowd were cheering me on, some people were singing the lyrics
i chose this song because i used to be with someone, who was really unfaithful to me, and the songs described my situation at the time, and that’s when i first listened to the song and literally cried my heart out
"it was perfect" Nicole smiled as i stopped
"you are what were looking for in this show" Simon told me
"thank you" i broke out into a smiled, not holding it back
the judges took a long time deciding weather to put me to judges houses.. i had to stand on stage for a few minutes.. it felt like forever just waiting for what they wanted… Kelly looked up at me and smiled. she gave me a yes, saying it was justhow Nicole described the performance.. Louis said no, because he doesn’t think i’m strong enough to cope with it all.. Gary dis agreed and him and Nicole gave me yes’
i thanked them and walked off stage. i felt someone take my guitar and George pulled me into a hug first. i sobbed like crying, so happy that i get to judges houses
i ran my fingers through my long dyed straightened pink hair, looking in the mirror. i applied my mascara, eye liner, and powder. i dressed myself in a white t-shirt and a pair of dark blue denim shorts. i slipped on a pair of yellow vans and went downstairs.
i made myself a cup of tea and went into the lounge, to catch up on some shows that i’d missed. my dog jumped on my lap, my little pug named George… after a while George jumped off my lap and watched her run to the door. then the door opened and closed. in walked my brother, Luke and three other guys
"what you doing home?" i smiled, looking at my brother
"wow, you’ve changed" Luke smiled "the braces.. the wrist" Luke laughed
"i broke my wrist three weeks ago.." i sighed
Luke picked me up and twirled me around like he used to do when i was a little girl. i whined that i was getting dizzy so he stopped and kissed my cheek. he introduced me to his friends; Ashton, Michael, and Calum. i looked at Michael, he blue hair sticking up, i bit my bottom lip, he was cute and i loved his hair, it looked so soft and gah
"i’m Nicole" i smiled at them
"well aren’t you just adorable!" Micheal smiled at me
"Micheal" Luke hissed at him
i rolled my eyes, as much as me and Luke have our fights, playful fights and say we hate each other. we very love are close siblings and he’s very overprotective of me, and likes to make sure i don’t date the wrong boys he always has to meet the boys before i get asked out…